Archive for the ‘blah blah blah’ Category

friday flood fuckery

Friday, August 27th, 2010

(how’s THAT for alliteration?)

i am fucking angry at our fucking building management b/c the fuckers haven’t had the fucking decency to contact us. yes, an engineer has been up here a good half-dozen times since last night to help with cleaning the carpet and repairing the lights that got damaged. but when i put in a specific request to have a manager (not an engineer, a manager) to come up here and have a look-see, and no one shows up or calls? that pisses me the fuck off. i think troy & i will be having a nice little chat with one or more of the managers this weekend, b/c, y’know, this is some bullshit.

if i had to hazard a guess, i’d say that anywhere between 1/4 and 1/3 of my clothes got dampened, if not outright soaked, from the flood. i’ve done 5 loads of laundry and dropped off a shopping cart full of clothes at the dry cleaners. i am not looking forward to paying that dry cleaning bill.

the carpet has been cleaned and we have use of an industrial-strength fan to accelerate the drying process. the tub has been emptied of all the icky water that was standing in it overnight b/c the drain got clogged, and i’ve bleached the tub so we can take showers w/o feeling like our feet are going to pick up a fungus.

and maybe troy will post some pics of the flood fuckery.

so…how y’all doing?

we wear the mask…

Monday, April 5th, 2010

y’all know that i’ve been doing freelance work for my former employer while i continue my search for a full-time gig. my current project is entertaining b/c the organization’s never done anything like this before and everyone involved in this is making it up as they go along.

today, i had to make an appearance for a meeting with a supporter of the organization. the supporting organization has a program in place that has a few similarities with the project i’m currently working on. my former employer wants to stay on the supporting organization’s good side, so this meeting was of the “o hai we haz a project sorta kinda like yours but not really so could you tell us what works for you so we can maybe use that? kthxbai!” variety.

as much as i dislike these kinds of things, i was willing to suck it up for this meeting. ok, i really had no choice but to suck it up for this meeting. besides, it’s not like i had to give a presentation or anything, so i was going to be content with smiling and nodding and providing a comment here and there.

and so the meeting went. lots of us asking variations of “so what works for your project? how can we adapt that?” and note-taking and the aforementioned smiling, nodding, and commentation.

until…the representative of the supporting organization started discussing how they handle placing applicants in their program. their process involves phone interviews with applicants and the organization making placements as they see fit, based on what the applicants are interested in and what’s available, etc.

the representative went on to mention that there are certain instances where they have to be a bit creative in how they handle a placement. now, knowing that some of their applicants are from outside the u.s., i was prepared for a comment about language barriers. but not this:

“well, we’ve had a couple of african-americans who speak street english…”

i know the representative said something after that, but i’m hard-pressed to remember what. on the outside, i maintained my blank but interested look. on the inside, though…

“wtf? did you really say that out loud? really? granted, i’ve been a bit quiet in this meeting, but I’M SITTING DIRECTLY ACROSS FROM YOU! wtf?”

etc., etc.

and before you ask, no, i didn’t say anything in the meeting. and no, i haven’t talked to the person i’m reporting to on this project about it. i probably won’t, unless they bring it up. i am willing to chalk this up to, as someone else at my former employer put it once i told them about it, “smart people saying stupid things.”

the thing of it is, i feel like my immunity to these kinds of situations has worn off, since i’m no longer working full-time. and you know what really sucks? 1) the fact that i had to build up immunity to these things; and 2) the fact that i recognize that some of that immunity has disappeared. that’s a discussion for another time, though. instead, i’ll leave you with the poem that inspired the title of this post.

on the radio

Friday, March 26th, 2010

troy and i used to turn on the radio and listen as we went to sleep. this was back in the day when wbez still played jazz at night. those were good times. when wbez changed their format (much to our chagrin), we (ok, it was all my idea) switched over to what was at the time wnua. yes, folks, smooth jazz has actually been played in our house. i’m not sorry about it, either. it’s tolerable in small doses (like right before you doze off). but when that station switched formats, we gave up on the whole “radio before sleep” concept. until a week or so ago, when i remembered that there’s a new smooth jazz station. i won’t say there was much rejoicing, but it was nice to have an option again. actually, i know there’s a lot of people who rejoiced when this station appeared, but that’s a separate discussion.

i say all of that to say that i was listening as i was trying to get to sleep last night and heard the following 3 songs:

sade: “babyfather” – this is from her new album (and you have no idea how nice it is to be able to say her new album) and i had no idea it was being played as a single.

dave brubeck quartet: “take five” – i don’t have to say anything about this song, do i?

simply red (!): “sunrise” – i admit to being *thisclose* to getting out of bed to blog/tweet about this last night when this song 1st came on, b/c any station that plays sade, dave brubeck, and what i thought was hall & oates back-to-back-to-back is ok with me, but then i realized it wasn’t hall & oates. i couldn’t quite figure out who it was until the dj said it was simply red (!). and simply red gets the (!) treatment b/c, well, it’s simply red (!) and i’d kinda forgotten they existed.

i think this is where i’m supposed to rant about the current sucktasticness of radio and how it’s all owned by conglomerates and all the stations play all the same artists and it’s nothing you want to hear and hooray internet b/c how else would we have music we’d want to listen to and all that, but in this instance, radio was actually pretty cool. i’m sure there was some sucktasticness later in that set, but i was asleep by then and missed it, so oh well. :-P

book fail

Friday, January 15th, 2010

have you ever found yourself apologizing and/or making excuses for a book you’ve read? that was me yesterday after finishing a book about certain leading figures of the harlem renaissance. no, i’m not going to mention the book or link it here, but if you really want to know, send me an e-mail or something.

at any rate…this book was pretty underwhelming. i was particularly disappointed b/c the harlem renaissance is one of my favorite historical periods. y’know how some people are world war ii or civil war buffs, and they’re all about reading books (both fiction and nonfiction) from those particular eras? the harlem renaissance is kinda like that for me. you can see why i was excited about reading a book that previously had escaped my notice. i mean, i took a class at nu about the harlem renaissance, so it’s not as if i haven’t read a book (or ten, or a couple dozen) on the subject. not saying that i’m an expert b/c that’s very far from the truth…just that this was presented as a seminal text in the field and i was kinda surprised that it had flown under my radar.

i found myself making excuses for the sucktasticness of the book. it was written in 1991, or so i thought, so therefore it came out just as more information was being disseminated about some of the folks featured in the book. i was wrong. i just looked at the book again and it was published in 1999, so i’m no longer willing to offer that excuse.

excuse #2: it’s almost like a coffee-table book. there’s lots of pictures and the book isn’t that long of a read, so one could flip through it while hanging out at someone’s home, etc. that would be ok, if if was meant just as a picture book and it didn’t contain multi-page biographical sketches of people.

and those bio sketches? incomplete. the profile on james weldon johnson mentioned nothing about his writing the lyrics for ‘lift ev’ry voice and sing.’ (apologies to any twitter followers who read about that yesterday.) langston hughes was one of the most prolific writers of his time, and there’s nothing about the short stories and other works he published after, say, 1931. and if you’re going to make a statement about how almost all the women featured in the book had intimate relationships with other women, then you should be able to back that up.

so, yeah. this book? not awesome. i’m glad i checked it out from the library and didn’t actually buy it.

but it was useful for one thing, though. i’m now on the lookout for any books or research about the sexuality of ‘key figures’ of the harlem renaissance. (another apology to twitter followers for the redundancy.) there were more than a few people who could be classified as bisexual, if not gay/lesbian, but for the most part, no one ever really made a big deal about it. i don’t know if folks were given more leeway b/c they were ‘artists’ and therefore it was expected that they’d behave outside of the social norm, or if it was just understood that no one cared as long as they weren’t super obvious about it, or what. i’m intrigued by it, though, and i’m thinking (hoping?) someone’s done some work on this. if not, i might have to pretend to want to do a research paper on this, and i’m not sure i’m willing to commit to that. if you have any leads on books/papers/websites/etc. pertaining to this, though, feel free to share them with me. thanks.

welcome to 2010!

Sunday, January 3rd, 2010

i’m still not ready to read, listen to, or watch anything related to the outback bowl. the pain is just too fresh. yes, i know that’s a little on the ridiculous side, seeing as how i had nothing to do with the outcome, but that’s just the way i feel right now.

i still think 2010 will be a year of win, even if it didn’t start out that way. we’re not big on making new year’s resolutions here at urbantherapy, so i don’t have a list of things to share with you. i just know that 2010 will be full of epic awesomeness and i hope to share as much of it with y’all as i can.

merry new year!

Thursday, December 31st, 2009

this will likely be urbantherapy’s last post of 2009. it’s been an…interesting year. i don’t want to call 2009 a complete year of fail, b/c it wasn’t. there definitely was some awesomeness. it’s just that the bad stuff was really bad and therefore it kinda outweighed the good.

here’s wishing y’all a healthy and happy 2010. in the meantime, i’m going to leave you with this:

go u! :-)

birthday! woo!

Thursday, December 17th, 2009

contrary to what patton believes, i get a birthday every year. it’s good to be queen! :-)

a year (and a few days) later…

Wednesday, September 16th, 2009

i’ve been un(der)employed for a little more than a year now. i had this grand idea of writing a post about what’s happened since i quit my job and how i’ve adapted to not working and how ready i am (beyond ready, really) to go back to work. and, of course, how much i miss having disposable income b/c omfg, i really miss having disposable income and my savings is pretty much nonexistent at this point.

but then i logged on to start writing and realized that i don’t have anything new to say about being un(der)employed. granted, it does have its advantages, like being able to go to farmers markets in the middle of the day and watching tom & jerry in the afternoon and taking naps and such, but that’s not all that noteworthy, is it?

i didn’t think so.

so, in sum – i’m still un(der)employed and still optimistic that an awesome gig for me is around the corner (please, god? that would rule!). oh, and still cooking – new recipe post coming soon-ish.

a quick rant

Tuesday, July 28th, 2009

i know, i know – you don’t hear from me for weeks and then i post twice in as many hours. i had to share this, though.

longtime readers know that there are many things about the job-searching process that annoy me to no end. like, listings for companies that claim to be in chicago but are really in waukegan, or lisle, or rockford, or schaumburg, etc. or listings that don’t provide salary info up front, which means everyone involved gets their time wasted when companies bring in someone for an interview and the salary they’re offering is a full $10K less than what the applicant was making at their last gig.

today’s grievance, though, comes from an ad i just saw a few minutes ago:

In our efforts to build a full supply of qualified candidates, we ask you to apply to this position. Should the position become available in the near future, we will contact you directly if your qualifications fit the needs of the (company name) opportunity.

so you’re asking me to spend who knows how long applying for a position that’s not even available right now, just on the off-chance that said position might be open at some point and you might decide to call me? are you serious?

the depressing part, of course, is that there are plenty of people out there who will submit an application for a job that may or may not exist. i’m grateful that my circumstances have not become dire enough where i’m applying for any and everything that looks like it might be a job. i know i’m lucky. i also know that a lot of employers deserve to get neck-punched for treating employees (both potential and current) like shit. this recession does not give you the right to be an asshole. fuckers.

breaking the silence…with randomness

Tuesday, July 28th, 2009

before i drifted off to sleep last night, the voices and i were having a silent conversation. somehow, the voices and i started discussing fried chicken, specifically my on-again/off-again desire for harold’s chicken, and how harold’s is just far away enough (read=not really in walking distance) for me to only go there when i’m really motivated. and in response to one of the voices, i said (silently, remember, b/c i’m talking to the voices in my head) that yes, feminists eat fried chicken – which, of course, is a spin on the old “do revolutionaries eat fried chicken?” query from ’school daze.’

and then i started thinking about how troy & i both identify as feminists, and how cool it’d be for me (or both of us, really) to have a t-shirt that says “i’m married to a feminist” or “i love feminists so much, i married one.” maybe i’ll check cafe press to see if such t-shirts exist.

told you it was random.

————————————————–

in other news…no, wait, there is no other news, really. july continues to be a month of awesome – so much so that i’ve extended said month of awesome through august. nothing as awesome as having a new job or anything like that, but awesome all the same.

i have 4 posts pending (2 in draft form and 2 still in my head), but i already know that finishing them will make me sad and, in one case, sorta kinda angry. and since i have nothing but time these days, i can avoid them until i get good and ready. how awesome is that?

but enough about me. what’s new with y’all? are you as ready for football as we are? how’s your summer going?